I'm guessing I'm not alone, but some days I just feel like I can't take it anymore. I can't deal with everything. I feel the weight of the world again, and it's overpowering me at the moment. Not in the sense that I'm done with my marriage and ready to run off with Steve- that idea is repulsive to me. I love my wife, we have a celestial marriage, and I have chosen to stay with her because I love her. But I am seriously burdened down and having a hard time today. President Faust once said at a BYU devotional that we aren't going to have good days every day. I guess he was right. So I'm going to leave work early and go mow the lawn. Get a change of pace.
For right now, I'm just getting through it. Putting one step in front of the other. I leave you with one of my favorite songs- Hang on Little Tomato, by Pink Martini:
The sun has left and forgotten me
It's dark, I cannot see
Why does this rain pour down
I'm gonna drown
In a sea
Of deep confusion
Somebody told me, I don't know who
Whenever you are sad and blue
And you're feelin' all alone and left behind
Just take a look inside and you'll find
You gotta hold on, hold on through the night
Hang on, things will be all right
Even when it's dark
And not a bit of spark
Sing-song sunshine from above
Spreading rays of sunny love
Just hang on, hang on to the vine
Stay on, soon you'll be divine
If you start to cry, look up to the sky
Something's coming up ahead
To turn your tears to dew instead
And so I hold on to his advice
When change is hard and not so nice
You listen to your heart the whole night through
Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you
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